push rewind

recently meron ako song na naka repeat mode for the day. few days back paulit ulit si bruno mars, pink, rhirhi, gabrielle aplin at emelie sande. sulit ang patience ko sa pagdownload kahit sobrang bagal ng internet namin.  kasama ito sa mga nadownload ko a few days ago.

 so this is for today:

ganda ng pasok ni diane birch dito. parang mas gusto ko keysa dun sa original nya.

gayun pa man feel na feel ko pareho! meron na naman akong banyo song. :)

alam ko na sasabihin ng iba... move on! oh please don't speak to me about moving on like it is something you can buy from the market or convenient store. hehe
i'm moving forward. relax lang. darating tayo dyan. :P

Bahala Kayo

Maybe some people know what I've been going through but I don't think they really understand.  The person who puts me into this predicament has no idea or probably just doesn't care.  I always seem to be happy, carefree, positive, patient, bitch and fierce. That's the personality I was able to create for me to hide my weakness and made myself also believed that I am.  Tough!  But I am not all that.  I am vulnerable too.  I'm not gonna deny that what happened or has been happening is breaking me into million pieces and it will probably take time to pick my self up again.  I'm trying my best.  I sometimes wish I could just escape from all of these or just snap out of what seem to be a nightmare. But this is reality happening right in front of me.  There's no escaping reality.  I'm dealing with it.  I'm falling apart but staying strong.  It might be ridiculous to even hope but if hoping is what will keep me going then yes people, I'm  hoping.

PS.
Pero kung ano yung hinohope ko, hindi ko sasabihin sa inyo.

somebody that i used to know...

i was planning to send this on 25th of january to someone. i copied it from somewhere

another month
another year
another smile
another tear
another winter
& another summer too
but there can never be
another love than YOU!

but this one is more appropriate

i may not have given you what you expected of me
and i may not have shown you the love and trust you wanted...
i'm human, not perfect but inside this imperfections lies a heart
that loves you the best way it knows how...

i am not the author, but those words definitely express what i'm feeling

familiar feeling

walang tama

wednesday 16th January 2013

hindi pala dapat nilalagay sa ref ang carrots. yan ang natutunan ko nitong mga nagdaang araw. hindi ito isang experiment kundi obserbasyon lang. eto ang kwento: isang carrot ang dinala ko sa opisina para gawing almusal nung sunday. hindi pa ako gutom kaya inilagay ko muna sa ref hanggang sa makalimutan ko na si carrot na tahimik sa loob ng ref ng hihintay na pansinin ko.  kahapon, tuesday, nakita ko ulet sya, medyo hindi na maganda ang balat kaya hindi ko kinain pero hindi ko rin tinapon at hinayaan ko lang sa loob ng ref.  kanina umaga sa wakas nakaramdam ako ng gutom after ng 2 days kong hindi pagkain ng maayos.  sakto! meron pa akong isang carrot, isang orange at milk bread sa food tray  ko. nagdesisyon akong si carrot na lang ang piliin at gawing almusal. swerte naman at sariwa pa rin ang hitsura ni carrot. walang pinagbago mula noong friday na binili ko sya sa carrefour.

katulad sa buhay natin may mga bagay na hindi natin dapat ilagay sa special na lalagyan para mapanatili ang natural state nito. may mga bagay na kahit iyong ingatan kusa itong nasisira or marahil hindi angkop ang paraang ginawa. minsan kasi gumagawa tayo ng mga desisyon na sa pananaw natin ay tama.  hanggang dumating ang realization na along the way meron kang nagawang mali. maliit man o malaking pagkakamali na nakakaapekto o tuluyang nakakapagpabago ng ating buhay.

di na maibabalik ang dati.  di magiging fresh ulet ang carrots na natuyo na... na ang tanging dahilan ay ang pag aakalang sa ref ang tama nitong kalagyan.

cold weather

when i'm having pimple breakout for excessive puyat due to coffee. when it's almost impossible to hold a cold glass of water or cold soda can without my hand shaking. when i struggle to get out of bed in the morning and you're not here to cuddle.

Playlist
1. Warm Me Up - The Audition
2.  Put it to the Torch - Hatebreed
3.  Tourniquet - Evanescence
4.  More of You - Mozella
5.  What About Us - The Saturdays
6.  Give Me Love - Ed Sheeran
7.  Girl on Fire - Alicia Keys
8. Ghetto Baby - Cheryl

i miss your hugs.

pretend

you knew i'm gonna find out and when i do, it will hurt me... even break me but you did it anyway.

tell me

how not to care?

please...

Day 30: what you learned from this month

lahat ay nagsisimula sa willingness na subukan
basta may guide
kahit walang kwenta
sulat lang ng sulat
scheduling post really works lalo na pag busy the following day
hindi pala ako masyadong tamad tulad ng pagkakilala ko sa sarili ko
kaya ko rin pala maging dedicated
kailangan ko magbasa lagi
at humanap ng iba pang libangan na may katuturan
marami pa ako dapat/pwede matutunan...
hanggang dito na lang. tinatamad na ako. :)

welcome 2013!

Day 29: things you're looking forward to next month

Wow! malapit na matapos ang challenge at malapit na rin matapos ang 2012. time to look forward to more great things in 2013, that would be in 3 days. another month. another year!

next month i'm gonna...

 start a healthier diet

 try any of these spring 2013 hair trends

write on my new planner!

syempre hindi ko pwede kalimutan yung hinihintay kong new phone. :)

 images 2 from pinterest